Thoughtful

I probably don't come across as a shy person, and when I am around people I know I'm often not, but I can be. I am often suprised when people a) remember me or b) know my name! I used to hate my name, now I am not that fussed about that, but it does still, happily, suprise me when someone remembers me.
It also suprises me when people who I feel are out of my league, whether it is work (when a manager or someone high up), socially (there is always the cool group of kids runing around) or even cycling (hardc0re!) want to talk to me. I know this probably sounds silly to a lot of people who have never had these thoughts before, and it's hard for me to explain, in words on here, what I actually mean and how it makes me feel, but its kind of like getting recognition for just being, that I am not the forgettable person that I always used to think I was.

These days I rarely have the negative thoughts that I am easily forgettable, that no one would want to bother to get to know me let alone go out of their way for it, but ocassionally they do pop up. In the past 6-12 months I find I have a lot more self confidence and a higher self worth, which is a fantastic thing, and I think losing the majority of my weight really helped with that - I have become a lot more at ease with who I am and accepting of who I am, but as with all things in life, there is plenty of room for improvements.


And now for a totally different subject, I am a sucker for a smile, especially when it is owned by someone who is at ease with who they are, has a plan and can put some thought into what's happening. Now to find someone who matches that description ;)

Spin Classes

I was talking a chick at work and she was saying how much she hated the one and only spin class that she did, that she likes to think during the aerobics classes that she does and enjoys trying to remember the steps/routine. What I love about spin classes is that I don't have to think!

It got me thinking about why I am really enjoying the spin classes and I came up with the following:

• I don't have to think about what to do except from putting in more effort
  
• I can challenge myself as much as I want to by controlling the resistance which means that if I slacken off I am only affecting myself and I don't get dropped, but then if I put even more effort in then I know I will get more benefit from it
  
• I don't have to try to match the pace that others are doing, as long as I am pushing myself
  
• The instructor tells you what to do so I can't just say which helps me to just do it when I am in a CBF mood
  
• There is someone yelling encouragement at you to push harder!!
  
• I know I don't have to get home on the bike so I can give it my all and it doesn't matter if I can barely walk (which doesn't actually happen)
  
• When I think I can't go any harder or I am losing concentration I look at the instructor and the people around me and try even harder and I discover I do have more in me
  
• I can push myself harder on spin bike than I can on my roadie - it's often a mental battle for me on the road to keep pushing myself, i slacken off to easily
  
• I love getting hot and sweaty at the gym and in spin classes the sweat literally pours off me - I love it!
  
• It is great to use to get rid of a lot of stress and worries in life and to just tune out from the world - more so than my normal gym cardio
  
• It is fun!! :D
  

An update

Not quite sure why, but I have been a bit quiet on here the past week or so. Well I did write up the warby weekend trip, but not a lot otherwise.

After several abusive phone calls from my mum I called her back after she had time to calm down and told her I didn't want to talk to her but I would connect the internet for her, but pretty much leave me alone otherwise, so I have the joy of doing that probably tomorrow night... -rolls eyes-

My housemate lost her job again and there has been a whole drama around that - she wanted to hide it from me but someone had already told me and she said she didn't want peopel talking about her behind her back as she isn't "fodder for other people's gossip".
She sent me an sms on Monday night saying "I didn't get a chance to do the dishes today, i'll do them tomorrow. There's heaps of jobs around! So you don't need to go around telling people that I'm not going to pay the rent."
My reply was "Umm WTF? why would I tell ppl you can't pay rent? It would have been nice for you to tell me yourself that you lost your job instead of trying to hide it from me"
To which she replied with "I'm not going to have an argument with you via sms. I know that ange told you so there was no point in talking to you about it, when I know what you've said to ange about me, which was bitchy and completely unjustified. hence not particularly wanting to discuss it iwth you. It's none of your business."
My reply was "Lol whatever believe what you want"

Now I am really confused by all of that because I have never told anyone she can't pay rent or wasn't going to be paying rent, the only time I have ever questioned her about paying rent was when she last got fired from her job, about 6 weeks ago, and she told me she was going to sydney for a holiday for a week and a half, which I honestsly don't think is an unreasonable thing to ask.

As for talking to Ange behind my housemates back nothing bitchy was said and it was all again also via SMS. Now if only my housemate actually knew how much people are fed up with her and her moods and poor me attitude. Nothing is ever her fault - ever! The other day she was about to do something in the kitchen and then didn't so I reminded her and she replied 'oh it's your fault, you distracted me by talking to me' WTF?!?! -rolls eyes-
I can't handle people who don't take responsibility for their own actions and my housemate and my mum are the same in this sense and I don't want to deal with it.

if my housemate mentions anything personal, or anything work related I will say to her that I don't care and that surely it is none of my business.

Maybe I should say to her that being fired twice in about a 6 week period must be really embarassing!!! Afterall, last week when I had a swollen lip and massive cold sore she looked at me and said 'wow that must be really embarassing!!' yeah no sh1t, that was just what I needed to hear...

In other news, I have done two spin classes and 2 gym workouts in 3 days and commuted to work on one of the days too and I feel great!!
My gym is doing a Tour de Northcote for the month of July while the Tour de France is on. 15 spin classes in 30 days and I am going to try to complete it :D It might mean that I don't commute to work by bike as much, but that's ok cos the spin classes are more efficient and effective as I don't tend to push myself enough on the commute like I do in the spin class. It is also great now cos my gym has a dedicated spin room! They used to use a verandah outside with cafe style plastic blinds to protect you from the weather... yeah that worked well... but this new room is great!! :D

Last night I went to the CSV womens forum, well I was there for about 30 minutes before I had to go to a dinner which I had to go to. The bit that I was there for was quite good and I think there are a lot of people who are passionate about getting women into cycling in general and also into clubs and into racing. I have an aim to join a club once I become a better cyclist (read: faster and fitter) and then to one day race, but not just yet as I don't feel comfortable joining a club just yet and I think these are the sorts of things that they are wanting to look at as to why and what they can do about it. I might update more on this at a later date

Warby Weekend!

What a sensational weekend!! I also discovered that I don't really like riding JT anymore and I think JT could sense this by bucking me off at one of the gates where we had to put a foot down to help get through them - the result was very good bruises, a jarred knee and a sore left ankle :(

We soon got to the first stop at the old Woori Yallock station, 15-16km's into the ride and the ute was opened up with all the eski's inside where several of us partook in a beer or two. Keeping in mind, which Heather helped me remember, my early start on the Friday of the HHCCC I only had the one beer and Heather drank, I mean inhaled, her crownie in about 2 minutes I reckon! I still can't believe she drank the one she put in her bidon holder after crossing _that_ bumpy bridge! The food at this stop, and indeed for the whole weekend, was sensational! Awesome (and massive amounts) of very very nice cheese, breads, biscuits and sausage/salami! I don't think I want to eat a soft cheese again for a month! Naturally, there was also picking on Heather about her height.

After a bit, we then headed to the next stop 5-6km's down the road, along the way we came across some cows which I know would have made Heather and Karen’s day. We also saw some sheep and some little lamb’s but I didn’t get the camera out in time and I couldn’t stop cos there was a pub waiting for us, the Launching Place Home Hotel! This was the official lunch stop but no one was all that hungry, but a few wedges were consumed and a few more beers but we all pretty much decided that we would eat later. An hour or more later we decided that we should push on.

The next planned stop was again another 5-6km’s or so down the road, but with a 1km detour from the trail. As team HAF were taking too long to leave the lunch stop, the majority of people headed off to Warby and missed the stop at the Sam Knott Hotel near the old Wesburn station. We got to the Sam Knott and it was just myself and Team HAF having a nice quiet ale. A second round was decided upon before we thought we best make a move to Warby and re-group with the others. When we got out the front of the pub Oz had a flat rear tyre – Bugger, so more beer was had while Oz changed his flat. After trying unsuccessfully to use a CO2 cartridge the tyre was finally pumped up and then about to head off again, when Oz discovered his front tyre was also flat – odd! We decided that someone may have just let his tyres down (maybe it was Michael??) so we pumped it up and we were finally onto the last leg of the ride to Warby.

Once we got to the caravan park, I had a quick shower, and headed off to find everyone. I soon found Team Idiot in one of their cabins having a drink or several and then found Team HAF HQ and the cheese n salami for some more pre-dinner drinks and nibblies.

At 5:30pm it was so dark we all thought it was dinner time, but that was another 2 hrs away so we just kept drinking in the cabins for a while longer before we headed out for the walk to the pub for dinner.

Walking to the pub was made interesting by Mrs G randomly shouting out alternatives to HAF, so DAF (Drunk As F$#%), PAF (Pissed as F$%@) etc but there was an incident along the way with some red wine and the medic was called but it was too late, it was gone and wasted (and so was Dale!)

At the pub some food was had as well as some more red wine and beer. There were lots of photo’s taken of everyone and some were clowning around while others were just doing what they were told to do. There was a lot of shy people during the evening at the pub who were just sitting back all quiet and reserved. Unfortunately, Michael kept spilling more and more wine, which Oz was happy to try and save by soaking it up with a napkin and squeeze back into his wine glass but some of it was unable to be retrieved.
As the night progressed some songs were sung and some looked a bit tired but then came back to life!

Unfortunately I wasn’t witness to the interesting methods that some people tried to use to get other people back to the caravan park, but it may have something to do with one of these and this person after too many of these in a shot glass, a good thing the police came past and put and end to that!

The next morning there were quite a few sore heads and a few parts of the night missing for some, but a great night was had by all!

Sunday started with a pootle into town for brekky and then the final stretch back to Cogs Café for a regroup and a cheerio!

A massive thanks goes out to the support crew of Mrs G, Mrs Oz and Dragon Lady with Matilda - what a top weekend away!

A new gadget

I bought a new camera, the Canon IXUS 70. I was going to wait until I got my bonus in August in plenty of time for the GVBR, but I figured I could get it today on the 12 months interest free and still at cost price so why not get it for this weekends Warby ride! I wanted a camera that was small and tiny enough to go into a (jersey) pocket w/out being obtrusive.
I got the camera, 2x 1 gig SD cards, a soft case and 3x 1 gig CF cards for my DSLR. It really is amazing how much markup there are on some things! I got the lot for the cost of the RRP of the camera on the Canon website ($500)

Rain

I now know if it is raining outside w/out checking BOM or looking out the window - my new weather station! It tells me the time, the inside temperature, the humidity inside, it gives little pictures for the forecast based on barometric pressure and it tells me the outside temp - well that is providing it isn't raining and it gives an error! It claims to be waterproof, but just can't send the temp wirelessly until I then move the outside device.

A pretty cool little toy though, it was about $30 or so from Bunnings, a Sontax Weather Station.

This has been going on for far too long

This afternoon at work I was in a really foul mood, I figured it was PMS so I packed up and rode home, figuring it will put me in a better mood and then I can do some work from home - all good! The ride home certainly helped to clear my mind and identify why I was in an awful mood - my mother.

I found out last night that she has been slagging my sister and I off to anyone who will listen about her financial situation and her living arrangements and they are all a big fat lie. When I found this out last night I was dumb founded, I honestly was lost for words and then I got angry, really really angry and wanted to call her and abuse her but I held back till I had some time to think about it.

She has tried to mentally screw with our heads for years and years and for the last 2-3 years I haven't let her, yet she still tries to. An example is one day she called me asking for help with her computer, she didn't like what I was saying to her so she said to me 'I will hang up on you if you aren't careful!!!' and my reply was 'go for it, you are the one who rang to ask me for help int he first place.'

No one in her family talks to her, my sister and I are the last ones and we are now at the point that we don't want to either. All her problems are the fault of someone else and never her own fault. The fact that she gambled so much that we had to keep moving house and then when she couldn't afford to buy a house and she started renting, the fact that $100k from her bank account dissappeared in 2 years isn't her fault either. The fact that when I was a full time student at uni, I had to take out a student loan to pay my Grandmothers nursing home bill cos my mum had gambled 3 months worth of her own invalid mothers pension, yup, that isn't her fault either.

When I got home tonight I called her. I told her what I had heard and of course she denied it and then she denied it some more while changing her story and then more denial and then, while denying it, confirmed who this information came from and then she changed the story again along with more denial and another change to her story. Honestly, it is no wonder we don't believe her when in the space of a 4 minute conversation she changes the sotry so many times! Not to mention all the lies in the past 10 to 20 years

So I have told her I am not setting up my free internet for her to use, that the money I owe her, as much as I would love to stop paying it back to her and proving one of her lies true that I have ripped her off, will be paid by automatic payment on the originally agreed date each month into her bank account and she is not to call and ask for it any sooner and she is not to call me asking for any extra money.

I am also going to draw up a budget of all my financial obligations each fortnight/month and work out what my minimum payments are on everything, plus give myself some money to live on and then every left over cent I am going to put away into my ING account, together with my bonus in August and I should have enough money to pay her off by the end of the year and tell her to never contact me again cos I am so sick of her bullsh1t and I just don't need it anymore.

EDIT: She just called and left a message on my answering machine and said 'when you are prepared to listen to the truth and not some made up version, call me and I might be prepared to talk to you again myself!'

I don't think she gets that I don't want to talk to her so it doesn't matter if she doesn't want to talk to me, in fact that is even better for me cos then she wont call me.

I just don't get it

This afternoon I put some washing on and then sometime after my washing had finished I heard the machine going again. A bit confused I went to the laundry and noticed that my housemate had put my washing into a plastic bag. Now, if I wasn't home and hadn't left my washing basket next to the machine, then that would be fine, but I was home so why the flock didn't she ask me to take my washing out of the machine?!?! I really am perplexed by it - I was in the next flocking room!!! Her retort was 'well you have put my washing in bags before', well yeah, I have, but that was when you aren't home and you are in the pattern of not being home for the entire weekend because you camp out at your mothers place!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Last night I went to the drive ins!! I was going to go alone but then one of my friends showed an interest so we both went and saw Oceans 13 and let me say - don't bother!

Yesterday morning I did a St Kilda to Carrum ride, ~62km or so and it was quite a comfy ride despite the cold weather - my legs really started to ache on the return leg from Black Rock to St Kilda because of the temp - brrrr

Yes, I am slow

I know that I am not the quickest rider around, far from yet, but when I post a ride that I think others might be interested in and say what I expect the avg speed to be, don't come back and say that if it was another 15km/h or so higher you would come along. We are literally in two different leagues so why even make the comment? I know it wasn't meant to make me feel sh1t or to put me down but it has.
Saying these things, especially after I had stated that I don't feel like I could join a club because I don't feel up to standard just yet and fear the ridicule of others due to my lack of ability hasn't really helped my confidence tonight.

Yes, when I feel comfortable enough to join a club then some formal training would be good, but I don't even feel all that comfortable going out on Beach Rd with people these days.

I am pretty sure that it wasn't meant the way I have taken it, which is why I stopped commenting on the forum about it and just let it be, but I needed to vent.

Sad Panda

I have my first ever cold sore, WTF?!?! I haven't even been kissing any strange (or known) boys lately! It is massive and I kid you not. I was worried about the swelling this morning so I went to the Dr's and she said that the first one is usually a doozy and that it definitely is. She told me to keep using the zovirax and gave me some tablets that might help it go away faster. The Dr reckons that I have probably had the virus for years but it has now decided to say hello and that it could be due to the sneezing and allergies from Sunday making me a bit run down etc - that could be the last time I help someone move house who has a cat. I wonder if I should tell people I walked into a door and see what their reaction is...

I also got the Dr to check out my ears and they seem ok but from what I was describing she thinks I have fluid in my ear somewhere and that there is no real treatment for it, it will just go away. I could try blowing up a balloon as that will help to open the ear tubey bits to drain the liquid. This explains the discomfort and the hearing problems I have been having. It isn't going to cause permanent damage but it could take a while to clear up.

Best Soup Ever!

OMG, my soup is sensational!! I have never made such a great tasting soup before and I didn't even follow a recipe! I got a beef rib and some meat from the butchers and I coated it in flour and browned it off in some butter. I then added an onion and some garlic and cooked them all for a bit and then added all my vegies - 2 tatoes, 2 carrrots, half a celery, two tins tomatoes and a zuchinni and cooked them for a bit. I then added 1.5 lites of boiling water and 4 rough tsp of vegie stock and 2 of beef stock and 4 small bay leaves. I also added two small whole chillies from my chilli plant and then later on I added two even smaller ones cut up and cooked for about 90mins

I think that the flour I coated the meat with helped to thicken the liquid a bit and all the flavours together are just fantabulous! I know that meat cooked on the bone is even tastier but the extra depth it gives soup is just awesome! Why didn't I do this sooner??

First Service

I did lots of driving over the weekend in the new car vroom vroom!! It is already due for its 1000km service!

On Sunday I helped Karen move house - OMG can anyone say hayfever and allergies?? Faaaaaaaaaaark! I knew it was going to be bad when I woke up sneezing, but I wasn't really ready for what eventuated. I took an anti-histameine before I left home for the drive to Hoppers and I don't know if it really did anything or not. Due to Karen having an indoor cat, which I was aware of, I just sneezed all bloody day. It got to the point where I just couldn't go into the house, I stayed outside loading things into the truck and moving outside stuff around. I ended up taking a second tablet around lunch time and I think that actually helped a bit, but by then I was knackered from the sneezing and all blocked up and just urgh! Anyway, I spent about 12 hrs or so helping Karen move and all of Team Idiot was there to make it quicker and easier which was great :D

Yesterday I felt the urge to cook soup so I went to the cookware place in Fairfield but they were shut! So today, I left work early to work from home (and I actually am) but I stopped at the cookware place and bought a kickarse 6.7l 18/10 Stainless Steel sauce pot :D I then went and got some vegies and went to the butchers to get some meat on the bone and then came home. I have done a bit of work and now my soup is cooking - it smells sooooooooooo good :D Can't wait till it is ready! The only thing I forgot to buy was some fresh crusty bread to have with it, but I can make some toast with the bread I already have.

I now need to collect a bunch of soup recipes and also I might make my own stock or something one day - mmm slow cooking :D Which reminds me, I really need to use my slow cooker and get some recipes to use with that too.

eh?

I think I might have something wrong with my hearing... I should make an appointment to get it checked

The Car

I have now done over 400km's in my new car :D

Yesterday the Dr told me to rest, so I went for a drive instead up to Yea through Kinglake and back through Yarra Glen. When I got home, in the dark, I went out to my car and tried to clean it with a cloth and some water - it had dead bugs all over the front a bit of bird poo on the bonnet. this morning I went over it again, the cateye bike light wasn't that great to use last night. I also got the dust buster out to vacuum the floor wells of where feet have been in the car.

I also tried putting the bike in the car, it fits easily, but I will try a few different ways over the next few times I need to put it in there as that is the preferred method of transport. I did get a towbar installed to be able to put a bike rack on the back, but that will only be used when carrying more than one bike... plus I still need to buy it!

Today after resting some more I theb headed for a drive and ended up at sky high, Mt Dandenong - the view was really crap with the weather, but that's ok, the car did well up the 1/20 :D

I took two happy snaps of the car today and like previously mentioned I will take some better ones one day soon with the good camera - clicky There is also one of the low fuel guage from the Barina before I traded it in.

NQR

The last few days I have been getting headaches and nausea a few times a day and all I can put it down to is headbutting my car on Sunday. I have again taken some panadeine but I still ahve a dull ache in my head and the panadeine isn't doing anything for the nausea. It isn't really much fun sitting at work trying to read and write doco's when feeling like this. I just feel like having a lie down until it all passes.

It is mine... all MINE!

I have my car!! YaY!!! After a bit of stuffing around yesterday I finally drove out of the car dealership at about 6:30pm - the proud owner of a brand new Honda Jazz!! It is all very exciting, I actually had more trouble sleeping last night knowing that it was outside than the night before with the anticipation of getting it.

One things I can't wait for though is to a) see my car and b) drive my car in daylight! Due to the delay in collecting it, it was pitch black when I drove got it and this morning driving to work it was also dark. It will be nice to just be able to sit in the car and look around without needing to turn on all the interior lights!

I will take a photo of it later today in the daylight. I might even try to do some arty farty wanky type shots on the weekend with my good camera to see what I come up with, probably with the 50mm 1.8 lens too and play with DOF a bit.

I did what I said I would do and I tried to give the Barina to the dealer with no petrol in it! I left home a bit earlier than what I had to and did laps from Doncaster Rd down the freeway to Blackburn Rd and thendown Doncaster Rd again - I think I did this three time and then I took a photo of the fuel guage, which is still on the camera, so I will put that up later too.

Pissed off

This morning at about 11:30am I got a call from the car dealer - my car wont be ready till 5:30pm instead of 2pm. I let him know how pissed off I was, that I had taken the afternoon off work and I can't switch it (he doesn't need to know that I actually can), that now I will be picking up the car in the dark and that now I wont be able to take the car for a drive down the coast like I was planning to. I am annoyed and pissed off and it has really affected my day. All the excitement of getting the car is now 90% gone. Yeah I know that probably sounds childish and spoilt, but it is how I feel. Yeah I have high expectations, but this is a Honda dealership - they should be able to fulfill them.
I even organised for a friend to take the day off work to come with me - now she is a day down on wages cos she is casual.

Yes, when I get the car and on the way there I will still get excited (hopefully) and once I have the car it will be great, but I need to convey to them just how pissed off I am, just how lacking their customer service has been since I signed the paperwork - its not right. I told them specifically that I was going through them for their service and since the day I signed the paperwork its been crap. I may even tell them I will reconsider getting it serviced there if this is what their after sales service is like.

What pisses me off the most is that yesterday the sales guy called me twice, each time confirming for 2pm today and yet this morning he tells me that the fog lights were on back order and they only arrived today which has caused the delay - why didn't he tell me this yesterday?? I signed the paperwork two weeks ago and spoke to him twice yesterday - why didn't he even mention that there could be a delay?!?!? ARGH!!!! NOT HAPPY JAN!!

I bought a buff today - no more cold head when I commute by bike

Saying goodbye

OK I am preparing myself for the emotional seperation... things I wont miss:
* Waiting 8 minutes for the front window to defrost enough to drive in the morning
* The heating not getting warm for about 4-5 minutes
* The front seat that needs re-adjusting every few days
* the no lights on the control panel part of the dashboard and needing to turn the interior light on to see what settings the fan is on
* A rear wiper that smears instead of wipes so it actually makes it worse
* Reverse gear crunching occasionally, even when my foot is flat down on the clutch
* Hazzard lights that you can't turn off - they once stayed on for a few days
* A cracked windscreen (yes I could have fixed this, but these things take time)

Things I am looking forward to:
* It is shiny!!
* Cup holders
* A glove box
* CD player
* Fast glass
* Power mirrors
* New car smell
And everything else that is fantastic about it!

My Barina has served me well over the past 9.5 years that I have had it, but it is time to move on.

In other news, today while exploring the network drives at work I noticed a server called HappyLand, when I click on it I got this error message which cracked me up laughing! :D
http://www.imagesbylisa.com.au/gallery/stuff/HappyLand

Bruised

This morning my head hurts still, not the killing headache I had yesterday, but a bit of a dull ache in. When I move my head around I can feel it and I think the bright lights in the office really aren't helping. When I bend down it really hurts too and I just feel a bit out of it - hard to explain.

I also have a bit of a bruise to go with the lump on my head too - I must have come close to knocking myself out I reckon.

Headache

Today I emptied out the Barina! Everything that doesn't need to be in there is now sitting in my loungeroom, waiting either to be put away or put into the new car. It really does need a vacuum but there isn't a point really - whoever the car dealer gives the car to will detail it or whatever so why bother cleaning it at all.

Tonight I have a massive headache, it is really painful and it seems to be coming from both my neck, which has been tense for a few days now and also the front of my head. Just before I was rubbing my forehead trying to relax it a bit more when I felt a really sore lumpy spot. I then remebered that whilst cleaning out my car this afternoon I whacked my head onto the door frame and it hurt like buggery. I remember thinking that I probably shouldn't have a nap after I had finished just in case I had a mild concussion.
So I think that the headache is from the combined tense neck muscles and the whack on the head, which hurts to even lightly run my fingers over the lump and has probably also made the neck muscles worse.

Stuff!

So I have spent this week catching up on Heroes - I just finished watching #10 and it is great - I love it!! The Indian guy, Mohendra (sp?) reminds me of a guy at work who, recently gave me hugs, which was very nice :D and Peter reminds me of another actor in a different show.

Today I went to Mackenzie's first birthday and it was great to not only see her but also Sarah and Jason! She is such a happy child who seems to be at peace with everything about her :D

Today I did another 2 hrs of driving in the Barina and tomorrow I am going to drive out to Yarra Glen to watch a cycling time trial in a bid to a) Try to almost kill the Barina and b) use the petrol in the tank.
The challenge I have set myself between this morning and Tuesday arvo is to try to kill the Barina as much as possible and to leave it with as little petrol as possible by the time that it is traded in. I fear that the Barina is actually indesctructable so only the petrol challenge will be achieved.