I'm not sure I could

It's been a while since my last update, I spose all my energy has been going into my house. Everything has been decided with the house and it's all with the bank waiting for them to do their valuation on if they will now actually give me the cash - how nerve wracking!

On Friday I had the worst hayfever I have had in years. It pretty much left me unable to do anything at all... I was so wiped out and zonked by it that it was rediculous - it really wasn't much fun at all.

Thursday I went for a bike ride to the shops, my first ride all year! Scary but true. Sure it was only about 4km round trip but it was an important turn of the pedals.

I'm currently watching 60 minutes and its a story about females who have a rogue breast cancer gene that means they have a chance of getting breast cancer and so they are having them removed. I'm not so sure I could do that. My Grandma on my mum's side had a double mastectomy AND a hysterectomy and I have personally had a pre-cancerous lump removed from my bowel, but I'm not sure I could do what these women are doing. Maybe if my Mum gets diagnosed with it then I might think differently having had it come through two generations.

I know that I have the cells/genes/whatever for bowel cancer - by pure chance they found a 4mm lump in my bowel 4 or 5 years ago which was removed and when tested, it came up positive for cells that would turn into cancer!. I do try not to think about the fact, but it is why I take daily fibre supplements and get checked every 3 years.